I distinctly remember the day I stood in the bathroom, looking in the mirror with rare approval at my reflection and thought, “This is such a good day to sing praises to God.”
As I turned to walk out of the room I was stopped by his still, small voice, “Really daughter? I thought I was worthy ALL the days. Not just when you have a good hair day. How you feel about you doesn’t change who I am.” And I stopped in my tracks. He was right. He always is.
It wasn’t the voice of condemnation, or disapproval but the voice of truth convicting me in my spirit and bringing awareness and correction to my thinking and my relationship with my God and Father.
As I engaged in conversation with my heavenly father he then spoke this, “My daughter, my feelings for you never change.”
I don’t know if it was because I had been so busy with our three young boys, the activity of ministry, or just my own lack of self-care but I had allowed my responses in my relationship with God to come to the point that my feelings about my immediate situation and myself were dictating how I interacted with him.
Sound familiar? Good things happen and we feel good about who God is. Bad things happen and we aren’t necessarily focusing on his wonderful attributes.
I can be so erratic at times in my emotions, and externals can affect my view of myself and my self-worth.
Left unchecked, my emotions could take me on a wild roller-coaster ride. One where I am so arrogant and self-absorbed to find myself only feeling like God was worthy to be praised when I felt like things were going in my favor.
In 2 Corinthians 10:5 we are reminded to “. . . take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” My experience is that I have to take every emotion captive as well.
What I feel is real, but it’s not necessarily true.
The sadness, disappointment, happiness, limitations, etc. are real feelings and it’s okay to feel them, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that they are truths that I respond to.
The foundational truth that I need to respond to is that God is always good, and He is who he says he is. My emotions need to fall in line with this truth.
How are you responding to the situations and circumstances in your life? Have the events of the past few years and how you feel about it all interfering with how you are relating to God?
Psalm 34:1-2 has been a powerful reminder to me that God is worthy of praise at all times. “I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul makes its boast in the Lord; let the humble hear and be glad.”
It’s been a tough year-and-a-half and we have struggled individually and as a community, but God has not wavered. Not even once.
And his feelings for you have never changed.